Wild Woods

[Scene - Guest Quarters, Wild Woods, Totnes, Devon - 1.32am]

John Lennon, Imagine, is playing from itunes. It is playing as a way to settle my nerves from having woken with a start just moments ago.

I went to bed around 2 hours ago and was sleeping soundly when all of a sudden I heard a voice calling, so I lifted my head from my pillow and uttered, "yes?". It was a dream. My heart pounding, I lay in this dark unfamiliar room and felt a grip of fear as my mind searched for meaning.

Laying still I attempted to put myself back to sleep, but the longer I lay there the more my mind took me on a ride that only further heightened my nerves.

So I sat up, turned on my phone and started looking for ways to distract myself by reading some emails, some tweets and a new article posted on Ooooby by James. I was still feeling insecure, so I started listening to a new audio book I had downloaded the day before. Still no relief.

So here I am writing on my laptop, and we're up to the 3rd song on the Imagine album, Jealous Guy.

So what is going on for me? So much. Life seems so delicate. So fragile. Why do we continue to live in ways that are certain to be our demise, when we know that we can live in better ways?

It's time to wake up. For the love of life, it's time to wake up. We must begin now to take responsibility for how we live. We have been like spoilt teenagers living recklessly and without concern or consideration for the mess and damage we are leaving in our wake. And it is our wake that our children are now being forced to live in.

Is it now time for humanity to start to become aware of it's destruction and to mend its ways? I am humanity aren't I? You are humanity... aren't you? What am I doing, what are you doing, what are we doing that we don't look at the consequences of?

Buying and discarding plastic packaging with little or no remorse? Feeding the blind beast of the centralised food system with our dollars without looking behind the curtain to see what incredible destruction it is causing? How long will we continue to do this? Surely we can't keep it up for much longer. Either this ridiculous behaviour will see the end of us or we will be fortunate enough to see the end of it.

But we depend on this system right? If we don't buy food from it, there is little or nowhere else to get our food from anymore. What are we to do?

I am feeling weary again. Time to go back to sleep.